It's the only the fourth day of work...

Yet I'm already feeling a little exhausted...

I feel a little sorry for my girls...

Ever since I came back, I didn't really spend time catching up with them, I spent most of time working and looking for job instead...

Girls, I'm really sorry...

But if you know what I'm going through, you will understand why I'm doing this...

I really feel like taking a break from all of these, and spend my times with like how it used to be...

But times are different now, really different, we can't turn back time anyway, so all I can do now is continue walking forwards...

I feel so lonely and out of place at work...

I know in time to come I'll making new friend soon...

But I don't wanna miss out all the friends I'm having now...

All of them are the kind of friends I wanna have for life...

So tired...

Pushing me hard, stressing me ain't gonna work in the long run.

Yesterday was first day at work...

By the way, I'm working at Bugis Gift A Name wor...

So if you are buying a present for someone, come to me, I shall "Gift" you some ideas ><....

Haha...

Anyway, it was a nice start, my colleagues are nice, although there were little mistakes along the way...

But that's alright, everybody make mistakes...

However, there was this one thing that really annoyed me...

I shall talk about it tomorrow or some other days...

I gotta go now...

Or I'll late for work...

Wish me luck people

You held my hand...

I could feel your heart beats...

It has the same rhythm as mine...

Every beats, every pause...

Although you did not say the three magical words...

But I could feel it coming from your heart... Through your heart beats...

Tears swell up in my eyes... Happy tears...

Baby, no matter how bad times can get, it can never be too bad...

Because god had sent me the best thing in my life...

It's you, my baby boy, my best friend, my happiness, my source of energy, my boyfriend, my Mr KoK...

I love you...

You asked me, after years down the road, will I still be the one holding you arms walking down the road of life...

To be honest with you, I'm not sure either...

I'm not sure what times would do to us...

But there this one thing I'm certain that will always be the same...

Nobody, not a single living things on earth would ever be able to replace you in heart...

So whether we are still holding hands like now, or not...

I'll always be the lucky girl to have you in my life...

*P.S: obviously I hope times won't do much impact on us... I would never want to loose you... So other girls... Shoooo!!! I'm not giving up...

(Am I making everyone feel like vomit? LOL... ><)

I thought as the old year pass, my problems from that year pass as well.

But well, I guess I was wrong, so wrong.

Everything getting from bad to worse.

Haiz...

Me and my pathetic life.

Things always appear to getting better, but actually there are problems creeping behind it.

By the way, i really admire myself for being so strong, and hang on till now.

Three cheers to myself.

I'm alone at home, with like his parents, and two little bro. (One of them is older than me, mind you)

Whatever you may think, I feel alone when baby isn't with me.

He's off to chalet with his classmates, after some really tough examinations.

He'll be back by tomorrow afternoon. =)

Went for a modelling interview this noon.

I have gotten 3 invitations from various modelling agency so far.

This is the 4th one.

I decided to give it a try.

Though I don't really think I'm the cut for it.

They are sending me to a training course for free, good right?

However, I've to use the kind of cosmetic they required.

Which is like so damn expensive.

I actually signed the training agreement without actually dicssing it first with baby.

I really regretted that decision.

Somehow, I just feel so bad, and really worried that he might be really angry with me.

But thank god he didn't.

So forgiving right?

Loves him.

Anyway, I kinda feel that it was a big mistake to decide to sign up for this course.

As I don't think anyone would want me as their model.

Well, all I can do now is to cross my fingers, and pray hard that I would get back the money that I've invested in.

Anyhow, for the happier phrase of today.

I met with huimin and yilin in the evening.

My interview ended at 2.00pm but I actually loitered around orchard till like 6.00pm+ till the girls came.

I'm lazy to go home, as I've to travel all the way to jurong east and then back.

Can you imagine it?

Not much to mention, except what happened when we were having macdonald at Forum Shopping Mall.

There was this girl sitting right behind huimin.

She moved the chair so back that huimin couldn't move into the seat.

Then huimin was mumbling something, she heard it, and then say something like "don't know how to say excuse me meh?"

And from then on we were having some sort of "fights", just orally.

Ok, to be honest, I was kinda worried, cause after all, it seems to be us who picked the fight.

So I didn't actually help out.

It's not that I chickened out or what.

Just that when I think it's my fault, I won't go on any further.

That's all for today.

Shall upload some fun pictures tomorrow.

Bye. <3

I'm 18 years and 1 day old...

Like lol...

My 18th birthday was kinda special in some way...

It started off really early...

It started off on the 11th...

My baby boy gave me a real treat...

A night at Mandarin hotel...

One of the five stars hotel in Singapore...

It costed him a bomb...

Poor boy...

At night, he brought me to the buffet restaurant in the same building on the 5th floor...

The food wasn't up to expectation though..

There were'nt much choices...

And it doesn't taste so good anyway...

Except the deserts.

They look incredibly cute...

Too cute to be eaten...

Then the 12th...

My birthday!!

I've not received any of my birthday present yet!!

Sad right?

At first I thought my 18th birthday is spoilt for good...

That was what I thought..

Okya...

Lets rewind back...

After checking out, I was supposed to be going to make my IC...(my wallet was stolen, everything's gone)

But I was feeling really sleepy when I reached home...

So i decided to do it another day instead...

Then I went to meet the girls...

Had some ice-cream then went to noren's house to make some cookies...

While MRT-ing home, I was thinking to myself...

"This is the worst birthday I have ever had, no cake, no presents, not even a birthday card."

I was pretty depressed...

When I reached home, everyone had their dinner...

I was to be eating alone...

What can be worst!!!?? >.<''

So I took my shower, get ready for my dinner...

Suddenly, baby tell me to go the living room, saying his mum was calling for me...

I was like "Oh my god!! Is something wrong?"

Freaked the hell out of me la...

Then all of a sudden, baby appeared behind with a purple birthday cake and everyone in the house was singing te birthday song to me...

I was so touched...

But I didn't cry, though I almost cry...

Don't ask me why didn't I cry...

I don't have the answers myself...

So it wasn't that bad after all...

In fact, it's the most special birthday I have ever had...

Muuacks, I love you forever, baby.

And your family too, they are so kind to me.

Finally reached singapore.
It was a long journey, both physically and mentally.

I'm all drained out now.
Shall blog about my interesting flights on a later day.

Nighty night.