I have like so many things to tell ya all la....
And nothing is gonna stop me...

TATTOO:
Ok...
So like I was finally get so determined to put a tattoo at my hip, my left hip...
I actually already pick the design, the tattooist, the location, and the budget for it...
Damn!!!
I hate bibi....
He kept going on and on about how painful it's gonna be... And blah blah blah...
You know my worst phobia is right? PAINs....
So I was having second thoughts, and did something really stupid....

EXTENTION:
At first I intended to get eyelash extension, went to city plaza, someone recomnded me some place really cheap and good in there...
So I went looking for that shop, I was almost there, suddenly I saw this huge red board(bright) saying they are doing eyelash extension for only $30, and hair extension for $0.50 per strand.
Well...
Out of curiosity, I went looking for that shop, cheat money de lor...
It was written on the board $30, when you go up, they say is $50... 0.o
And then I don't know what had gotten into me, I did hair extension for $1 per strand, and I actually paid $200 for my freaking hair....
I must admit that it looked really nice and natural, but it hurts like crazy...
I couldn't lie on my back(think of the position of head) when sleeping, I could feel my hair being pulled back really tight, I was forced to sleep on my side instead...
At 1st, I thought it was just me, being my sissy self...
I was thinking, maybe after a few days, it will get better, but it didn't, although the pain did died down a little, something else surfaced.
I think I already having very little hair, what if the extesion is pulling so tight that it make more of my hair drop?
This totally creep me out.
I decided to seek professional help.
I called up baofen for help. Guess what I found out!?
The put three clips onto each of my extension instead of one, F***ing crazy la.
No wonder it hurts so bad. -.-,
So she took them off for me, FOR FREE.
Thanks so much baofen, I treat you ice cream ok...
LOL...


So there it goes, my $200, I must be the craziest normal girl you ever met.

Sorry for the lack of updates...
I've just moved house...
And alot happens...
I can't mention names...
Because of certain people..
Just not now...




I wanna go clubbing...
Would anyone please pei me go...

Went to my aunt's wedding last night, together with my baby boy...
My aunt looked beautiful, like her usual self...
I was accompanied by her daughter, I found myself get along very well with children...
Is that mean I'm gonna be a good mum in the future?
I didn't take much pictures...
Will upload them on a later date...
Going to IT fair later, should be taking more photos...
And I'm going with Joleen, my favourite girl...
We have so much to catch up with each other...

Shall blog more when I'm back...

Did some good deeds yesterday...
It is a very normal thing for some people...
So I shall not go into the details...
Not like it's a rare occassion that I do good deeds...
I'm talking about it cause suddenly I've the feel to talk say it...
Haha...
I'm crapping away AGAIN!!!
Anyways, I saw STEVEN LIM in person on tuesday...
I was happily walking my way (SMS-ing).
All of a sudden he appeared out of nowhere...
I was abit of a shock, so I totally forgot what he said to me...
Something like he wanting me to join his modelling team...
Still in abit of shock, I agreed...
He took some photos of me...
Seriously, that wasn't a very good time to take pictures of me...
My skin look oily, dirty and all signs of tiredness...
Like what happened to me...
I'm so lazy to doll up myself lately, I hate it, it's so not me...
Haiz...
And for goodness sake!!! He put my pictures on his blog...
AARRHH!!!
Like can I send him my better looking pictures?



I'm so screwed!!

Another day at work...

However, today was alot better, not very good at the begining though.

I arrive at my work place at exactly 10.30 (it was pretty rare of me).

Guess wad...!!

The freaking door wasn't open, not a singel soul had arrived...

Damn.... @#%@$

Never mind that...

Today I made a new friend at work...

She is from China, quite cute, how did we started to make friend, or rather what is the 1st thing she did to me....

SHE SLAPPED MY BUTT!!!

1st: it scares the daylight out of me

2nd: NNICE start...

We got along quite well, at the end of the day, we exchanged numbers.

Okay...

I shall continue tomorrow, I promise...

TAG REPLY:

zu er: I leave the details to your imagination.

zu er(again): ya... but she quit le...

It's the only the fourth day of work...

Yet I'm already feeling a little exhausted...

I feel a little sorry for my girls...

Ever since I came back, I didn't really spend time catching up with them, I spent most of time working and looking for job instead...

Girls, I'm really sorry...

But if you know what I'm going through, you will understand why I'm doing this...

I really feel like taking a break from all of these, and spend my times with like how it used to be...

But times are different now, really different, we can't turn back time anyway, so all I can do now is continue walking forwards...

I feel so lonely and out of place at work...

I know in time to come I'll making new friend soon...

But I don't wanna miss out all the friends I'm having now...

All of them are the kind of friends I wanna have for life...

So tired...

Pushing me hard, stressing me ain't gonna work in the long run.

Yesterday was first day at work...

By the way, I'm working at Bugis Gift A Name wor...

So if you are buying a present for someone, come to me, I shall "Gift" you some ideas ><....

Haha...

Anyway, it was a nice start, my colleagues are nice, although there were little mistakes along the way...

But that's alright, everybody make mistakes...

However, there was this one thing that really annoyed me...

I shall talk about it tomorrow or some other days...

I gotta go now...

Or I'll late for work...

Wish me luck people

You held my hand...

I could feel your heart beats...

It has the same rhythm as mine...

Every beats, every pause...

Although you did not say the three magical words...

But I could feel it coming from your heart... Through your heart beats...

Tears swell up in my eyes... Happy tears...

Baby, no matter how bad times can get, it can never be too bad...

Because god had sent me the best thing in my life...

It's you, my baby boy, my best friend, my happiness, my source of energy, my boyfriend, my Mr KoK...

I love you...

You asked me, after years down the road, will I still be the one holding you arms walking down the road of life...

To be honest with you, I'm not sure either...

I'm not sure what times would do to us...

But there this one thing I'm certain that will always be the same...

Nobody, not a single living things on earth would ever be able to replace you in heart...

So whether we are still holding hands like now, or not...

I'll always be the lucky girl to have you in my life...

*P.S: obviously I hope times won't do much impact on us... I would never want to loose you... So other girls... Shoooo!!! I'm not giving up...

(Am I making everyone feel like vomit? LOL... ><)

I thought as the old year pass, my problems from that year pass as well.

But well, I guess I was wrong, so wrong.

Everything getting from bad to worse.

Haiz...

Me and my pathetic life.

Things always appear to getting better, but actually there are problems creeping behind it.

By the way, i really admire myself for being so strong, and hang on till now.

Three cheers to myself.

I'm alone at home, with like his parents, and two little bro. (One of them is older than me, mind you)

Whatever you may think, I feel alone when baby isn't with me.

He's off to chalet with his classmates, after some really tough examinations.

He'll be back by tomorrow afternoon. =)

Went for a modelling interview this noon.

I have gotten 3 invitations from various modelling agency so far.

This is the 4th one.

I decided to give it a try.

Though I don't really think I'm the cut for it.

They are sending me to a training course for free, good right?

However, I've to use the kind of cosmetic they required.

Which is like so damn expensive.

I actually signed the training agreement without actually dicssing it first with baby.

I really regretted that decision.

Somehow, I just feel so bad, and really worried that he might be really angry with me.

But thank god he didn't.

So forgiving right?

Loves him.

Anyway, I kinda feel that it was a big mistake to decide to sign up for this course.

As I don't think anyone would want me as their model.

Well, all I can do now is to cross my fingers, and pray hard that I would get back the money that I've invested in.

Anyhow, for the happier phrase of today.

I met with huimin and yilin in the evening.

My interview ended at 2.00pm but I actually loitered around orchard till like 6.00pm+ till the girls came.

I'm lazy to go home, as I've to travel all the way to jurong east and then back.

Can you imagine it?

Not much to mention, except what happened when we were having macdonald at Forum Shopping Mall.

There was this girl sitting right behind huimin.

She moved the chair so back that huimin couldn't move into the seat.

Then huimin was mumbling something, she heard it, and then say something like "don't know how to say excuse me meh?"

And from then on we were having some sort of "fights", just orally.

Ok, to be honest, I was kinda worried, cause after all, it seems to be us who picked the fight.

So I didn't actually help out.

It's not that I chickened out or what.

Just that when I think it's my fault, I won't go on any further.

That's all for today.

Shall upload some fun pictures tomorrow.

Bye. <3

I'm 18 years and 1 day old...

Like lol...

My 18th birthday was kinda special in some way...

It started off really early...

It started off on the 11th...

My baby boy gave me a real treat...

A night at Mandarin hotel...

One of the five stars hotel in Singapore...

It costed him a bomb...

Poor boy...

At night, he brought me to the buffet restaurant in the same building on the 5th floor...

The food wasn't up to expectation though..

There were'nt much choices...

And it doesn't taste so good anyway...

Except the deserts.

They look incredibly cute...

Too cute to be eaten...

Then the 12th...

My birthday!!

I've not received any of my birthday present yet!!

Sad right?

At first I thought my 18th birthday is spoilt for good...

That was what I thought..

Okya...

Lets rewind back...

After checking out, I was supposed to be going to make my IC...(my wallet was stolen, everything's gone)

But I was feeling really sleepy when I reached home...

So i decided to do it another day instead...

Then I went to meet the girls...

Had some ice-cream then went to noren's house to make some cookies...

While MRT-ing home, I was thinking to myself...

"This is the worst birthday I have ever had, no cake, no presents, not even a birthday card."

I was pretty depressed...

When I reached home, everyone had their dinner...

I was to be eating alone...

What can be worst!!!?? >.<''

So I took my shower, get ready for my dinner...

Suddenly, baby tell me to go the living room, saying his mum was calling for me...

I was like "Oh my god!! Is something wrong?"

Freaked the hell out of me la...

Then all of a sudden, baby appeared behind with a purple birthday cake and everyone in the house was singing te birthday song to me...

I was so touched...

But I didn't cry, though I almost cry...

Don't ask me why didn't I cry...

I don't have the answers myself...

So it wasn't that bad after all...

In fact, it's the most special birthday I have ever had...

Muuacks, I love you forever, baby.

And your family too, they are so kind to me.

Finally reached singapore.
It was a long journey, both physically and mentally.

I'm all drained out now.
Shall blog about my interesting flights on a later day.

Nighty night.

Since when has my blog become a debate place?

Huimin: what dance are you talking about?
Zu er: I'll relink you as soon as possible...

I tryin to put a countdown clock to my blog. Countdown to the day I'm back in sg. But the bloody website just doesn't open.

Anyway, anyone interested in going out and celebrate my birthday with me?
Or anyone kind enough to organise it for me?

I'm not too picky about the venue.

I miss dance, I miss KCPSS, I miss my friends.

Feel like crying, I'm one emo kid.

Anyway, happy birthday in advance to my laopo, JOLEEN NG.

Arh!!

Something is wrong with my internet.

I won't be able to go online for a very long time.

So, miss me people.

Anyway, happy new year to all earthlings.

Huimin, quit spamming my tag.

Thanks =)

　美梦总是会醒来，但我相信，我们的美梦会延续到老，其实，能和你相守到老，本身就是我真实的“美梦”。

I think my tagboard is being spam..?

Spammed? Spamed? Or spamded?

Whatever! This is making my hair blonde.

Huimin, you lame forever.

Omg! Poor girl!

POOR GIRL...

LoL...

Those good old times...

I sound old la...

Omg!

What's wrong with me?

*slap slap slap slap*(left right motion)

Dear zu EH!!

I can't fedex you the DVD.

So I'll upload it here for you to watch.

By the way, you are not 18, so I can't show you.

And don't splash me cold water!!

Let me live in my fantasy.

My kit name sumi.

And she is being a pain in the ass these days.

Keep bitting on stuff.

Feel like pull off all her teeth.

Of course, I'm just kidding.

That was funny isn't it?

I really wish to see huimin and zu EH! catfight.

That's about all I want for Xmas.

What have I been up to lately?

Nothing much.

Just me and my randomness!

Ok.

Had a girl night out last Saturday.

It was erm... fun!?

I don't know... Maybe... Yeah... Whatever!

I don't feel like talking about it right now.

In this blog, I wanna talk about a really old movie I watched lately.

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.

I don't really recommend it to everybody.

One is because: it's not suitable for people below 18 years of age.

Two: in case you have a huge problem with gay people.

This movie talks about the love between two cowboy.

Two totally different family background, thinkings and characters.

They loved each other more than anyone else.

But the society they lived in just doesn't allow them to be together.

Despite that, they still hold on to their love till their last breathe.

It is a heartbreaking tale of impossible love.

Oh my god!

It had been two years.

And we are still together, and going strong.

Like how many couple can be like us?

I don't care if peopl say hao lian or whatever they may say.

I mean like, envy all you can, people!

I'm just so in love.

Ya, you maybe saying I'm crazy or what.

I admit it.

I'm crazy, crazily in love.

No one could love me better than him.

Baby, you are the hottest thing on earth.

The best damn thing that happened to me.

I love you just the way you are.

Forever isn't enough for me to love you.

My cutie lil baby...

LoL... Look at how she sleep...