I hate couples.
I hate seeing them on the street, I hate seeing them on the train, I hate seeing them in the shops.
I just simply hate the sight of them.

Because I'll be so jealous.
They can see each other as and when they like it.

So unfair.

I wanna see my Bibi as well, but all I can do is wait, wait, wait and more waiting.
We are thousand miles apart. Even timing are so different.
What can I do when I miss him, want to see him.

WAIT.

Wait till he finish his work, wait till he save enough to come to england, stay at my side.

When, Bibi?

When can you be at my side forever?
When can you be all mine?
That day will come, right?
It surely will, won't it?
How far is it?

I will continue waiting....
Because that is all I can do....

Why is my blog so screwed up again?
You may think it looks alright, actually it's not, at all!
Will be changing my blogskin soon, really soon, but still working on it.
So stay tunned ya?

Anyway, I have got a really pleasant news.
My mum had given me the permission to start up my own business.
Sounds great isn't it?
I'm gonna start with a really small business.
I'll rent a litlle corner at a hair saloon, place a manicure table.
I'll be the boss and the worker at the same time. :)
That's how my mum start up er business as well.
It's a really humble begining, but I've confidence that I'll build up an empire with it.


Amy, jia you jia you jia you!! (3 cheers to myself) XD
All my friends, you guys will back me up(mentally) right?
Wish me luck!

How have you guys been doing?
I have not been blogging for quite a few days now.
I was busy preparing for my beloved mum's birthday.

Let's me tell how it turns out, alright?

On monday, I went to order the cake, without knowing what favour to buy.
By the way, I thought thursday is the 26th, which is her birthday, so I ordered to be collected on thursday. Thank god, they only take down the date.
I was so panic when I realised that thursday is the 27th.
I have no more money to buy another cake, luckily only the date was written on the receipt.
Phew!!

Now come to the decoration part.
I walked around the decoration shop for several hours, yet still have no idea how I should decorate the room.
So I end up having to buy all the stuff on the day itself.
It turns out bery nice, but not as nice as I have expected it to be.
On the day, I've asked my teacher to let me skip half of the lesson.
I had only one lesson on that day.
Then the mad rush began.( I thought)

End up, my bloody uncle, he say cannot go too early.
I have loiter around on the damn cold street for 3 hours.
I couldn't take it anymore, so I just hack care, I bet with my luck.

I went to collect the cake, then head home, betting with my luck to see if my mum was at home,
Because that she was supposed to go to the market and buy some stuff for my grandma.
I was luck enough, she was not at home when I reached home.
While waiting for stupid uncle to arrive, I cam-whore a litlle.


Pa chiao eyes.( dunno how 2 spell)

I got really bored. So I start edittig pictures.

Told you I was really bored.

He finally call me. Asking me what to do next. I say keep my mm away from the house. So that I can put up the decorations.

So I finally get to put up the decorations in peace. Suddenly, my mum came back, I got totally freaked out la can? She saw the cake, but not the decorations.

Phew!!

Now then that damn uncle turns up, he managed to pull my mum out of the house (with no violence means) I got some more time to put up the rest of the decorations.

Which looks like this at the end of it.

This is how the cake looks like.

She doesn't want people to know how she is so I didn't put her birthday and year.

More pictures will be updated soon. Maybe videos too. So stay tunned! ^^

By the way, in the evening, my mum's so called best friend came over. So the actually party only begins at 8pm.

There you go, as promised!!

A tour around my new school.

So sorry there is no talking in that video.

I actually did talked, but I don't know what happened, all the talking are gone after I uploaded it onto my computers.
So I replace it with a song, hope you guys enjoy it anyway.

Let's me guide you guys a little here.

Our school office, princepal desk and staff office are like so patheticly small, as compare to my school office back in Singapore.

We have a sun terrace, we use for little parties in the summer, older students using it for smoking, or just simply hang out, we can't use it these days, too cold to do that.

We also have a student room, where we can make coffee or tea free of charge, cups are provided, but very little in number, we sometimes use that as a studying room as well.

There is a internet room, with computers that is internet accessible, and with printer and a photocopying machine too. Quite well equiped, isn't it?

The class rooms are relatively small, again, as compare to those I have in Singapore, but that's ok. I mean, we have very few students in a class, so it doesn't really matter.

I have to climb so many storeys to reach my class, phew!! But that's ok, just take it as an exercise then.

Ok!! That is basically all about my new school. Oh!! There is no canteen as you may have noticed, along the streets, there are many good restaurants, so we don't really have a canteen.

By the way, I'm recovering from my fever like so fast now, and the time here is 4.00am. I took my medicine and slept quite early, so I woke up early, and feeling totally refresh. Haha! That means I can hit the clubs tonight. =)

Down with fever.

Good lor, win liao lor.

First day of school got flu, just recover from flu, now come the fever.

I think tomorrow I may not be able to go to school.

Having headace, head spining, sore throat, no appitise.

Was laying in my sick bed, I over heard my uncle and mum talking.

My uncle was saying:" Amy is such a good girl, go straight home after school, never loiter around."

My mum was like:" Haha. Wait and see. After she get used to London, you will never get to see her at home. In singapore, if the clock had not strike 10, you can forget about seeing her in the house. If you do, most probably is because she ran out of money."

I was like LOL, don't ask me what is so funny, I just find it funny.

My uncle doesn't believe what my mum said though.

Anyway, I'm going off now.

Damn i!! My phone has no more credits, can't sms my Bibi to xa jiao( don't know how to write in english!!)

Hope to see him online tomorrow!

Grrrr....

My msn is so screwed...

I'm getting really annoyed...

I started using yahoo! messenger now...

So friends...

Please download yahoo! messenger as well, so that I can chat with you guys.

Please please please please...

Anyway,

My school ended at like 12pm today, woothoo!!!

So I have onli three hours of class, minus 15 minutes break, that'll be onli 2hr 45 mins.

Shiok right?

Then come here study with me, ok? XP

Actually, I've a free study period from 12.30 till 3.30.

Different people have different method of studying.

I chose t study the life in london, so I decided to go to shops and find out. XD

That's all for today, gotta get busy now.

I'm moving to the flat upstairs, like so finally.

Today is the second day at school.

I'm quite pissed off.

Why?

Because the teachers are effin blur.

They don't know which students they are teaching, they don't know what's going on, they don't know the classrooms hab been swopt.

It's like what the hell is going on?

I supposed to have general english in the morning, and business english in the afternoon.

However, it ends up that I have general english in both morning and afternoon.

When I verified with the teacher, she was like shocked, and know nothing.

Then she ran around the school, looking for help.@_@

I end up having to end class one hour earlier.

It's not a bad thing, it's just that I'm pissed off.

A confused person, is an angry person.

Thanks to the confusion, I made a new friend from japan.

I forgot how to spell her name, but she's from Tokyo.

She said I look like a Japanese. XD

DUH!!

My grandfather is a pure Japanese, can?

So at new school, I made total of three friends.

For goodness sake!

My class have only five students. O_O

And two never actually turn up!! =_="

What an interesting school I have here.

By the way, I've video down my school, and a trip to the musseum.

I'll upload as soon as possible, I swear I'll.

Got to go pack up my stuff now, tomorrow I'll be moving to the upstair flat.

joleen: it's not that I never contact you lor, is you never go online,

last time everyday oso online but never see you!!!!

I've emailed you anyway.

miss whatever: grrr...my new school is totally driving me crazy.

Bibi: I damn lucky lor, wrong classroom, wrong teacher, everything in my life had gone wrong.

Sat in the corner, I let the loneliness in me slowly take over piece by piece of me.

I tried to sleep, to forget, to let go, to be strong.

I'm so hurt, every word you said, is like a dagger, and everything you said, keep repeating in my mind.

Stop chasing me into the corner, stop pushing me over the edge, will you?

I cry and cry, hope each and every tears will wash away the pain, the shame I'm feeling.

Because you are my mother, so I can't say it into your face.

I need some respects, just a little also can.

Think of my feelings before you say things, even though it maybe true.

Keep to between us, don't go round spreading it to others.

I smiled, pretending everything is Ok.

But deep down in my heart, it's so painful, I could hardly breathe.

Did I choose to be at your side to deserve this?

Look at me, I'm all tired and wear out.

I'm really tired, tired of proving, tired of explaining, tired of showing.

I don't wanna do anything anymore.

I just wanna cry myself to sleep.

If someone is at her limit, will she sleep forever?

Is dreamland a perfect place where there's no pain, no tears, no worries?

If it is, then I wanna be in it forever.

I wanna go back home, where my love ones are.

But I can't, I don't think I can move forward either.

I'm like swimming in the middle of the sea.

I too far from my destination, too far from land.

I can't go back nor forward, I'm stuck, lost and hopeless.

I don't belong here, and I'm all alone.

I'm breaking down.

It's so cold here, can someone come and take me home?

Anyone? Just somebody, get me out of this mess.

Tomorrow will be the start of my new school, and of all things, I'm having a flu right now.

I'm damn "lucky" can?

Can you imagine?

First day of school, spread flu to all of my new classmates...

They are gonna remember me for life.

Actually, I'm totally not prepared for the new school at all.

I've not buy my school books, I didn't buy even a pencil.

I wonder how am I gonna survive.

Grrrr.....

Wish me luck, people.

Went to look for a job today.

I went out without taking my breakfast.

My old sickness is taking it toil on me again. Cause I've been losing a few Kg recently, so I feel so guilty eating. Crazy right? I know, I'm trying to fight that feeling too.

Another factor is that, I've been in quite a down mood recently.

I don't know why.

Just don't feel like doing anything, just wanna sleep.

I keep hoping time will pass faster.

So that I can faster see my beloved BiBi.

And my mum has been annoying me as well.

I know it's disrespectful to say this.

But she seems to get mad at everything I do.

Arrhh!!

If this goes on, I think I'll die of suffocation.

School is start soon, hopefully I'll be able to find a job soon too.

So that I don't have to be literally jailed at home.

That baddie BiBi neglected me, went to sleep first,

What a baddie, right?

Also never think how much people miss him.

Haiz.................

Feeling so down.

Alright dancers, I call this professional.

When I first saw her live performance at MTV Music Awards, I thought " what happened to the great britney spears that I used to worship? It looks like she doesn't want to dance at all.

However, after watching this video, just makes me love her more.

I guess, she understands that this is her last chance for redemption, for all that she had done, so she already gave her best.

I hope those who thinks she doesn't deserve a comeback, to think again, and consider her hardwork.

Well, I'm trying to make myself sounds like some kind of missionary angel, but I think such a talent like her should not be brought down by the pressure of media.

People shouldn't just talk about bad things that she had done, or happened to her. They should also think of her talents too, and recognize her works as well.

All the best to you, Britney. (I hope she gets to see this.)

I'm telling you, this guy is even more ironic than britney herself.

If he's acting, I bet he's gonna win a grammy award for the best actor.

It's like WHAT THE HELL!!

Ya, I think that the media is really being too much. They are really over-doing it.

But she's is your wife, your sister or YOUR MOTHER. Neither is she dying tomorrow.

Why the hell did have to cry like that.

People, you gotta check out his other videos too. This guy is seriously more ironic than iron itself. Puff!!

Have been such a long time since I last blogged. The only reason is because my new has no internet connections. I was like rotting away at home. There are so many things I wanna tell you guys, many interesting things, but rather filled with hatreds.

Ok, lets begin from the day I moved into my new house. In the morning, everything turn out pretty well. It's when we (me and my mum) arrived at the door step of our new house. At first, we had agreed to pay £200 for the company to send someone to drive us and our stuff to london. However, when we arrived at our destination, the driver actually asked for £450, which is like more than double of the price we agreed. So we were argueing for awhile, the driver actaully refused to unload the stuff, and even threaten to drive back to Nottingham, if we don't pay him the full amount. We didn't want any trouble on our first day at the new house, and we were very tired as we travelled quite a long way from Nottingham to london, so we gave in, we called his boss, and he again agreed to take just £400 from us. Then, the mother****ing driver still not happy, he said he must get £450, no more no less. By now, my mum and I are really blowing our top already, and the driver actually intended to drive away with me sitting on the van and the stuff at the back. F*** him to hell man, what on earth was he thinking for driving away with ME on the van, I can easily call the police and say he was trying to kidnapped an underaged girl. My mum called the police, and I, of course, tried to stop the van, who knows whathe might be up to. So i tried to get at the hand brake, but some how i failed, last resource, I jumped over and get the key. So the man and I were like fighting over the keys, and for godness sake, the vehicle was still on the move. I failed to get the key, but I managed to break the keychain. You might be thinking, what's the point of breaking the keychain. Let's me tell you, first, you try to break the keychain on your own, nad see how much effort I put in, secondly, when he realised that I'm not weak, he knows he may not have any chance to win. So he half gave up. My mum, she is not stupid either, she did not just stand there and stoned. She actually fold in his rear mirror. For those who knows how drive should know what it is. So he could'nt see anything behind his vehicle, by now, he gets more panic, so he totally gave in. He was screaming" that was f***ing stupid, you bloody bitches, look what you have done". So i replied him, "f*** it, who cares, by scolding me stupid, you are not any smarter." He took out his phone and called the police. "hello, there are this two girl, refuse to pay me my money, and is attacking me, the address is ....., please get the police here immediately". Aaaarrrhhh!!! Someone screw this fellow, we paid him £400, the cash is still right there in the box beside him, and he dares to tell the police we refused to pay. And look at his size can, he with one hand is at the landlord telling him to shut up and step aside, see how rude this fellow is?!! So we waited for tenough to carry me up, how the F*** can I attack him. What nonsense is this!! Then our nice landlord arrived, he asked what happened, and I just started crying, ladies' weapons, telling the landlord what the man did, without telling him what we did =) . So he walked to the driver from hell, advising him to give up, or he will just end up losing when the police comes. The bloody driver shouted he police to come. In the end, maybe god beat some senses out of this motherf**ker, he unloaded our stuff and leave quietly. In the end, the police never turn up, thanks anyway. I'm thinking, if that day, I was the one calling, and saying that the man actually trying to attack me. Will the police turn up? That's not important anymore, so we happily moved our stuff in, and get ready for new begining.

Who would have guessed, the worst are just about to begin. To be continued...